chi_nano07

THE NOVEL

2007-11-04T03:49:13Z

CHAPTER ONE: GETTING THE JOB VS GETTING THE GUY

She walked out of the classroom, a big smile covering her face, and as soon as she was outside, she screamed “YES!“ She was more than happy, happy because she had gotten the job she wanted.

The job she had dreamed about ever since she got here. Ever since she started studying here. She could now officially call herself a TA, she had just gotten the news from Professor Underwood and she was more than happy. She was thrilled. Sure, it would be a lot of work combing this with her double major but it would give her so many opportunities and a chance to get her dream job later on.

She walked over to the coffee cart and got herself some coffee thinking she should get home as soon as possible so she could call Robert with the good news. Wrapping the scarf around her some more as fall had really kicked in now, she walked out on the streets and made her way home as quickly as possible, almost bouncing on the sidewalk.
Once she got into her dorm room, the first thing she picked up was the phone and she dialed Robert’s number hoping he was home. About to hang up the phone, he answered.

“Hello?”

“Robert? It’s me, Emily! Guess what?”

“What?”

“I got the job, I’m officially an TA now!”

“What?! That’s great, Em! I’m very happy for you, really.”

She could hear her brother smiling through the phone.

“Thanks, I’m more than excited, more than I can even put in words. I mean the possibilites this gives me. I really should call mom and dad also, so I’ll talk to you later, kay?”

Obviously she had to call her little brother first, they were best friends and shared everything with each other. Her little brother Robert, who actually wasn’t so little anymore. He was 18 by now already and working hard to get into law school, his big dream. She was pretty proud of him because he was doing great.

Dialing her parent’s number, she couldn’t help but thinking how glad they’d both when they heard of her getting the job and it was right in time also. She had also been an undergraudate TA or TF as they called it here at Harvard but this was going to be completely different. She’d actually be able to do something and it was going to give her a big foot into the door to actually get a job later on. Her excitement to start her MA program had just flown away or there was something new already, getting this job. Life couldn’t be better.

“Gray.”

“Dad, it’s me, I got the job! The professor just told me about half an hour ago. I’ll still get the official letter and haven’t yet signed my contract but he already let me in ont eh secret.”

“That’s wonderful Emily, I knew you’d get it though.” Her dad’s voice just beamed with proud as he chuckled softly. “Let me get your mom. Rosaaaaaa!”

She waited and grinned when she heard him yelling for her mom, as usual forgetting to put the telephone away. She waited patiently for her mom to come on, only to blurt out the news as soon as she got to the phone.

“I got the job, I got the job!!”

“Congratulations, honey, but I had no doubt you’d get it really.” Her mom’s voice was even prouder than her dad’s if that could be.

They talked about it for a while until she hung up because she had some more people to call with this news. Next on her list would be Jason. Although she wasn’t sure if she should call him but ever since they split up they did remain in contact and he was the one person from back home besides her parents she really stayed in touch with. After thining about this for a while, she slowly started to dial his number.

“Styles.”

His voice made her cringe a little and it was still kinda weird to just call him like that but in the spirit of friendship it was the right thing to do. After all they did decide to split up together and it had been in mutual consent.

“Hey Jason…” She hesistated for a moment “It’s Emily.”

“Hey there! What’s up?” Her voice as friendly as usual and well just being Jason. It made her wonder why they even broke up in the first place. It was for the best though and she knew that.

Quickly snapping out of her thoughts she finally spoke.

“You know that job I told you about? The TA job? Well, I got the confirmation today.”

“That’s great Em, I’m happy for you. Really.”

The tone in her voice made her wonder if he really was as happy as he pretended to be because after all this would mean she would come back home even less as she’d have less time. Which was one of the reasons why the broke up. She let out a little sigh which was bearily audible and put a smile on her face, also if the man on the other side couldn’t see it.

“Thanks, Jason, I just thought I’d let you know about it, you know…” She stopped talking as she wasn’t really sure herself what she wanted to say but she figured he’d get her as he usually did.

“Yeah, I know.” She heard him smiling through his words.

The whole situation between them was weird and as much as they both tried to be civil and normal, they both knew there was this barrier between them which made it hard to really talk.

“So, what’s up back home?”

“You know the usual, life here is always the same.” He paused “Which is strangely comforting, you know?”

She nodded “Yeah, I know what you mean. As much as I love it here, that’s what I miss and really, sometimes I wish I was back there and didn’t have the things that I worry about here, to worry about.”

She knew this was the wrong thing to say because it was one of Jason’s points but it was out there before she knew it. Luckily he was so civil to not go into it.

“Yeah. Well, I got some stuff to do so I’ll talk to you later, kay?”

“Okay, bye Jason. It was nice talking to you…”

After she hung up, she threw herself on her bed and closed her eyes and her thoughts went back to Jason and her back home. They were happy, content, problem-free…

-----

“Hey Emily!” There he was all of the sudden as he usually showed up. With that custom smirk on his face.

“Hey there! What’s up?”

“What’s up? What’s up you ask? Nothing really, I’m just happy to see you.”

Emily smiled at him and adjusted her back pack. School was out and it was the weekend.

She knew Jason from some classes and lately he hung around her for some reason. She liked him but she wasn’t sure how she liked him. She had never been with somebody and she had never been in love as she had always been the studying type and just the hanging out with friends type. Besides there was that other boy, Luke… Luke Questal, now that was somebody that made Emily feel weird. Jason on the other hand was just a fun and sweet guy to be around with. She enjoyed spending time with him and all but that was it for her. He on the other hand seemed to like her a little more. Or at least she assumed so. She wasn’t very experienced but she wasn’t completely stupid either so she was definitely understanding the hinting of his part. He was cute of course and she liked him but she didn’t gave her that feeling she got when Luke walked passed her, not that he knew she existed. Her being a sophmore and him a senior.

“Happy to see me huh? Well, it’s nice to see you too Jason.”

“Hey, you wanna go and see a movie tonight?”

She considered his question for a moment and then nodded, thinking ‘why not?’. He was a fun guy to be around after all and she hadn’t been to the movies in forever.

“Sure, what’s on?”

Jason scratched his head for a second “Uhm… Top Gun, Poltergeist II, that chick movie Pretty in Pink and I think Ferris Bueller’s Day Off.”

“Okay, well you decided, I think I’d like them all.” She smiled softly at him “What time you wanna meet up?”

“I was actually thinking I could pick you up, you know, maybe we can grab a bite to eat before…”

They way he looked at her with those big hopeful eyes made Emily feel bad if she’d say no. She just hoped her parents wouldn’t make a big deal out of it. They were cool of course but sometimes they were a bit too cool. She nodded slowly. “Okay then. Let me know what time and I’ll be ready. You got me address right?”

He nodded happily “Sevenish?”

“OK, I should really get going now though.” Emily waved at him and walked off towards her house.

-----

It was a quarter to seven and Emily was ready to go already. Wearing a pair of jeans an a simple shirt. She had no idea why she was a little nervous, it was Jason she was meeting, but for some reason she was. She sat in the living room, glad that her parents had to go out to dinner with some friends of them and they had just left already.

She kept flipping through the tv channels and watching the clock and the closer it got to seven the more nervous she got.

“Calm down Emily. It’s Jason you’re meeting, it’s not a date or anything.”

It was then when Robert burst into the room.

“Hey Em, talking to yourself again?” He grinned at his sister and looked at her with a little frown on his face “What’s up with you? You seem nervous.” Robert paused for a second “You got a date!”

Emily made a face at her little brother “I don’t have a date. I’m just meeting Jason and we’re going to see a movie.”

“So, you got a date.” He stated dryly.

Her brother was unbelievable sometimes, he was 3 younger than her and 12 but he seemed older than that.

She looked at him “Well, maybe it looks like a date, kinda, but it’s not like that.”

By now though, Emily was in doubt about the whole thing and she was saved by the bell which meant no more talking to Robert but actually facing Jason which was weird after this talk and weird after her thinking about what this was. She sighed and then got up and smiled slightly at Robert who was just grinning at her.

“Later.

“Later! Have fun!” With that he grabbed the remote control and looked if he could find something interesting to watch.

Emily opened the door and was greated by a Jason with a big smile on her face.

“Hello there.”

“Hey.” She smiled softly at him, getting even more nervous now she was standing across from him.

“Uhm, I was thinking to grab a quick bite at the diner and then head to the theatre, sounds good?”

“Sure.” She smiled at him as they started walking towards the diner.

-----

They walked out of the movie theater after they had decided to go for some good old horror movies so they had seen Poltergeist. It had been kinda weird because Robert had put his arm around her and as weird as she found it at first, she kinda liked it after a while, it made her feel weird somehow. Also when their hands had met in the popcorn bowl, she had felt a shiver going through her. This was weird, she didn’t like Jason that way. She just knew she didn’t. Still now she looked at him and she couldn’t help but smiling for some weird reason.

They walked along the street and were just quiet, the whole situation was strange for both of them apparently.

“Uhm, you wanna get a milkshake or something?” Jason looked at her and Emily just nodded and they then started walking towards the ice cream parlor where they both decided against a milkshake after all but got a couple of spoons of ice before walking outside again and crashing on a bench.

“So, you liked the movie?” Jason tried to make conversation.

“Yeah, it was good.” She smiled at him “What about you?”

“I loved it, I’ve always liked scary movies.” He got pretty excited as he started talking and then suddenly stopped just looking at her. “You got some ice cream…” His hand went up to her face and he got a bit of ice cream she had apparently spilled off her face

Emily smiled at Jason “Thanks.”

She looked at him and felt all kinds of things she had never felt before. Not for Jason. Not for anyone. It was in that moment when he hesitatingly leaned into her and softly put his lips on hers. Emily was startled at first but she liked the feeling so she slowly closed her eyes and kissed him back.

CHAPTER TWO: FEELINGS? VS FEELINGS!

She hit the alarm clock when it went off and sighed covering her head with the blankets. It was still dark outside and she really didn’t want to get out of her cozy bed. Who in their sane minds got up at this hour anyway? After lying fully covered for a couple of minutes it started to feel claustrophobic and she threw the blankets off. She sat on on her bed shivering a little although she was wearing her thick pajamas. Stretching out she slowly got up and walked to the coffee maker to let it run while she took a shower. Yawning she grabbed her stuff and walked out in the corridor towards the bathroom. The one advantage of getting up this early was that nobody else was up yet which meant warm water and free showers.

Rubbing her short blond hair, she returned to her room and as soon as she opened the door she was greeted with the delicious smell of that brown liquid she loved so much and had been living on these past days. It had been a month now since she got the job but she was still trying to find a good rhythm to balance the job, school and friends. Luckily the holiday season was around the corner and she at least would go home for Christmas because she could. For Thanksgiving she hadn’t managed to go home so she and a couple of friends who didn’t go home either improvised a Thanksgiving dinner. Which had been fun but it was nothing like back home but also if it wasn’t that long a drive she just couldn’t manage time-wise to just drive there for one day as the next day she had to be present at work again.

She took a moment to enjoy her morning coffee before she got dressed and grabbed her bag to get to Spencer’s office so she could get things ready for his first class. Once outside she breathed in the crisp cold air, it looked like it was going to snow. A smile formed on her face, she loved snow. The whiteness of it all and the way how everything looked perfect, covered in a soft white blanket. Not to mention even to walk in fresh snow, although she always hated to ruin the serenity of it all because footsteps really weren’t so serene anymore. As long as it only her walking there though and there was enough fresh snow around her, she was content. She could hardly go and tell people they couldn’t go outside when it had snowed.

After the short walk onto the campus, she searched for the keys in her bag and unlocked the door to Spencer’s office where she started to arrange his notes for later. Now all that was left was to copy the hand outs for the students and get the class room set up. She took one look if everything was in order in case he’d come while she was in the copy room and then locked the door to go and get her copying done. She knew that he wasn’t so picky and he was a great boss really but when it came to her job she was a perfectionist and she wanted to get it all right. It was just who she was and she wanted to get a good referral from him after all later to get ahead and get a spot in the PhD program here at Harvard, not to mention a job.

As she was locking the door, Spencer startled her “Good morning, Emily.” His voice the usual arrogantness he always seemed to have while speaking and his smile the usual smirk-like smile.
Maybe it was his accent who did it, maybe he was just like that, she had no idea but for some reason he always managed to make her feel small.

It was probably be more a thing of looking up to him and admiring his knowledge because now she knew him a little better she knew he really wasn’t as arrogant as he came across. At least not towards her. Still he still managed to startle her and make her feel like a little girl, she had been working for about a month for him now and still he impressed her with his knowledge and he wasn’t even that much older than herself. She looked at up Spencer, besides all that he also made her feel shy somehow and that had nothing to do with being impressed by him and all that. It was something different, something she didn’t want to acknowledge and something she didn’t want to happen. She couldn’t let this happen. He was married, she was his student and employee, this could never be. For most of the time she didn’t try to think about it but there moments like these that made her aware again, moments when he was this close to her and then that signature smirk of his. She quickly regained herself and brushed her thoughts away.

“Morning.” She smiled at him. “How are you this morning? I’m just on my way to the copy room, can I get you anything?”

“No, thanks. I’m fine for now. Well, I’ll let you go and do your work.” He smiled back at her and stepped aside so she could pass by him, her arm brushing his for a split second which almost made her tremble. This really had to stop.

While she put the things on the copy machine and started copying, her thoughts drifted to Spencer and what she was feeling. She had tried to not think about it for some time now but as feelings were uncontrollable and popped up whenever they wanted to, her thoughts drifted to that short exchange they had had just now. Usually she was able to control herself pretty much and be composed and all that but when she met in out of the blue and especially like just now when he snuck up on her, she couldn’t and everything came flowing into her. She had no idea why she felt like this, this wasn’t like her and she should forget about him and just do her work. To him she was just another student and another TA he had. He was married to that long-legged, long-haired classy woman she had seem him with at the mixer. He would never like somebody like her, Emily Gray, she was light years away from being like the wife he had.

She sighed and reprimanded herself, she had to shake this off, this was not healthy for her. As much as she tried to put it away and manage to do also, it had changed her. It had made her more serious in a bad way. Of course she had always been serious when it came about her education but she was also funny Em, the one that always cheered up others and the one that always had a joke ready. She had to snap out of this and not pretend she wasn’t thinking about it and go back to who she really was because as much as she told herself that she wasn’t thinking about, she knew it was back there and for some reason it weighed on her also if she didn’t recognize it consciously.

Going back home would hopefully give her a chance of paste. She’d be home for three weeks so that should give her other thoughts. Of course she’d also see Jason again. She could not not see him, he knew she’d be coming home for Christmas and they had agreed on being friends after all. Maybe actually seeing him again would help with that because for now all they had only talked over the phone and last time they had seen each other was when they had broken up. Thinking of Jason made her smile a little, sweet Jason, she still cared quite a lot for him also when they weren’t together anymore.

-----

“Heeey!” She screamed at Jason as he threw a big snowball at her.

She stuck her tongue out at him and pulled her red woolen hat a little more over her ears as she wiped the snow of her face. Jason had a good arm and always caught her off guard. She was about to get back at him and as she was forming a nice snowball he snuck up from behind and before she knew it she was lying flat out in the snow with Jason on top of her grinning. She made a face when he wanted to kiss her and then caught him as she rubbed the ball she had still in her hands right in his face. Grinning she then kissed him softly, kissing the snow of his lips.

“You!” He grinned when they broke the kiss and flipped her over so she was on top now before he kissed her again while he grabbed some snow with one hand which the then threw into her jacket.

“Aaaahhhhhh!” She just screamed and shivered as she jumped up on her feet.

“What’s the matter?” His voice as innocent as possible but a big smirk on his face.

Emily just shook her head and looked at him as she handed him her hand covered in a purple and red glove “Are we done now?”

He nodded laughing “Yes.”

“Ok.”

They walked along their hands intertwined breathing in the fresh cold air. She loved winter and snow, she had loved it since she was a little kid. Luckily Jason liked it as much as she did so they were out and about quite a lot now they were on their winter break. She loved this season even more so because of all the holiday, Christmas being number one of course.

It was their first Christmas together since they got together last May. It was also their last year of being without worries because next year would be their senior year and they would have to start planning on what they’d want to do, or better where they wanted to go. They hadn’t talked about this yet because it was all so far away still but Emily thought about it now and then because she had her plans sort of mapped out already. She wanted to go to Harvard and double major in English Literature and Creative Writing and she had been working for it since she started high school. Jason was a little more relaxed about these things, he’d just see where he’d go and for all he cared he’d attend a community college.

“So, my parents asked if we’d be there Christmas eve.” She looked at him smiling “Your parents are of course welcome to come also.”

He nodded “Sounds good to me, I gotta check with them though but as far as I know my mom didn’t make plans yet, except for the 25th when we’re supposed to go to my grandparents, you included.” He grinned a little.

“Me included?” She looked at him “I’m a little scared now, I have never met your grandparents…”

“Don’t worry, they’ll love you.” He chuckled “Probably more than they love me.”

She raised an eyebrow and smirked “Now, I wonder why…” Sarcasm was clearly audible in her voice, Jason was a brad and he had probably been worse when he was a kid. Of course when it came to pranks and jokes and all that she wasn’t much better but around parents or grandparents, at least other people’s, she always knew how to behave herself.

“Wanna go and do some Christmas shopping?” She looked at him “It’s only a few days and I really need some presents still…”

He made a face at first but then nodded smiling “Okay, you’re right actually I still need some things also and at least with you around I got something who can help me.” He winked at her chuckling.

“Sure, I’m the biggest shopping help you can get considering how much I love shopping…” She winked at him as she took his hand again to lead him towards Main Street as he really need a push, or a pull rather, to actually go there. It wasn’t like she didn’t need the exact same thing but at least she managed to give it to herself. “C’mon, we’ll do something fun afterwards.”

“Like what?” He wiggled with his eyebrows a little and smirked.

“I was actually thinking something else you perverted boy but who knows what will happen if you a good boy and actually do some shopping with me. Really, we both don’t like it so we should help each other get through it, right?” She smiled at him as he finally started walking.

-----

After about 2 hours they had actually both managed to get their whole Christmas shopping that was left done and satisfied they were sitting in the diner for some hot chocolate and pancakes. Emily looked at him “So, don’t you feel good now? Satisfied I mean.”

“Uhm… Yes, I guess so… But…” He looked at her and she rolled her eyes at him.

“You really can’t get enough, can you?”

“What do you think? I’m 16!” Jason shrugged and grinned “Besides you’re one to talk.”

She blushed slightly and didn’t comment but brought the steamy cup to her mouth before she looked at him again chuckling a litle. She took his hand and played with his fingers a little lowering her glance to his hands and then back to him “You thinking what I’m thinking?”

He nodded frantically “Lets finish these and lets go…”

They both gulped down the hot fluid as fast as they could and got out of there back to her house as both her parents were working and besides her parents knew and would never disturb them. It was kinda different at Jason’s place, his mom was a housewife and always home and she always thought she had to bring them cookies or milk or tea or put his laundry away when she was over there and they where in his room. So they had decided that they wouldn’t even try to do it at his place because it was virtually impossible. Emily was happy her parents were they way there were and also Robert respected their privacy, everyone in her family did.

-----

They arrived at her place even more horny than they were back at the diner because they hadn’t been able to keep their hands of each other the whole 10 minute walk over there so once they were inside and she had yelled “hello” to check if anybody was there, Jason pushed her against the door closing it and started to kiss her more passionately, his tongue looking for hers, and quickly his hands were pulling her jacket off and finding their way under her pullover. He stroked her back and loosened her bra to be able to touch her breasts, massasing her nipples until they got hard. In the meantime she had pulled his jacket and hat off and her hands were finding their way under his shirt also.

“Lets go upstairs…” She whispered inbetween kisses and moans when he went from her back to her nipples again.

He nodded but not before he lifted her shirt up and sucked her left nipple a little. She moaned and dug her nails in his back. He found his way to her mouth again and kissed her before they walked upstairs to her room.

Once inside she locked the door and pushed him on the bed, pulling her shirt over her head revealing her breasts. He looked at her longingly and pulled her in for a kiss before he rolled her on her back to kiss her breasts, softly sucking the nipples and then going further down leaving a trail of butterfly kisses on her stomach.He pulled off her pants and panties and own shirt before going further down. She moaned as he went further and further and slightly brushed her clit. He then went on to her thighs and kissed them softly before he went back to her most delicate spot again, licking her most sensitive spot before sliding his tongue into her and out again as he went back to her clit. She moaned and grabbed his head pulling him up again to kiss him deeply and pull onto her. She unbuttoned his jeans and stripped them off him including his boxers. Still kissing him she pulled him tightly and he slid his hard member into her. She moaned loudly inbetween kisses as she ran her hands up and down his back.she lifted her hips as he thrusted into her and the closer they came, the faster they moved until they both came. They broke their kiss and he rolled onto his back next to her. She turned on her side and smile at him kissing him softly, her hand going through his hair.

“That was great…”

He just nodded and smiled at her and then pulled the blanket over the both of them before he wrapped her thightly in his arms stroking her back softly. She smiled and closed her eyes as she dozed off a little until he woke up her after a little while.

“We should maybe clean up the little mess we made downstairs… I mean with the jackets, hats and all that… I know your parents don’t mind but still I feel a little weird leaving it like that.”

She nodded sleepily “Yeah, I guess you’re right… I’d like a shower also actually.”

He nodded and they both got up and threw on some clothes.

“You kno what? I’ll go and get the stuff downstairs in place and you go and take a shower, kay?”

She smiled and kissed him “Thanks, sweetie.”

With that he walked downstairs only wearing his jeans and she headed for the bathroom.

Downstairs Jason put the jackets in place and then walked into the kitchen to get something to drink.

He was just about to walk upstairs with two glasses of Coke when her mom walked inside.

“Uhm, Mrs. Gray….” He blushed and bit his lip as he looked at her.

She chuckled “Hello there Jason. Feeling a little hot there I see? And I told you numerous times, the name is Rosa.”

He blushed even more “Uhm, yes, Mrs., I mean Rosa…. Uhm, sorry, I, uhm…” He wanted to find an excuse for being shirtless in her kitchen but he knew it was pointless as he looked into her face “Well, I’m gonna go.”

He quickly walked back to Emily’s room and waited for her to get out of the shower.

“Your mom just came!” He looked at her wide eyed “And I was in the kitchen like this!”

She laughed and shook her head “Serves you for walking around shirtless.” She shook her head
“Thanks, now I’ll be teased endlessly with this…” She punched his shoulder a little as she sat down on the bed “If you wanna take a shower, go ahead, my mom won’t mind.” She winked at him.

“You sure? I mean I know she doesn’t but still it’s weird, I’m not used to these kind of things.” He looked at her and when she rolled her eyes at him he got up and headed for the bathroom knowing that there was no point in discussing this any further.

Still on schedule!

2007-11-04T03:44:53Z

Wow, I can't believe I'm still on schedule. The NaNo schedule that is, not my own schedule because I wanted to write more today but at least I'm not behind. That's something for me because usually I never manage to stay on schedule.

5486 / 50,000
(10.9%)

Chapter Two

2007-11-04T03:42:20Z

CHAPTER TWO: FEELINGS? VS FEELINGS!

She hit the alarm clock when it went off and sighed covering her head with the blankets. It was still dark outside and she really didn’t want to get out of her cozy bed. Who in their sane minds got up at this hour anyway? After lying fully covered for a couple of minutes it started to feel claustrophobic and she threw the blankets off. She sat on on her bed shivering a little although she was wearing her thick pajamas. Stretching out she slowly got up and walked to the coffee maker to let it run while she took a shower. Yawning she grabbed her stuff and walked out in the corridor towards the bathroom. The one advantage of getting up this early was that nobody else was up yet which meant warm water and free showers.

Rubbing her short blond hair, she returned to her room and as soon as she opened the door she was greeted with the delicious smell of that brown liquid she loved so much and had been living on these past days. It had been a month now since she got the job but she was still trying to find a good rhythm to balance the job, school and friends. Luckily the holiday season was around the corner and she at least would go home for Christmas because she could. For Thanksgiving she hadn’t managed to go home so she and a couple of friends who didn’t go home either improvised a Thanksgiving dinner. Which had been fun but it was nothing like back home but also if it wasn’t that long a drive she just couldn’t manage time-wise to just drive there for one day as the next day she had to be present at work again.

She took a moment to enjoy her morning coffee before she got dressed and grabbed her bag to get to Spencer’s office so she could get things ready for his first class. Once outside she breathed in the crisp cold air, it looked like it was going to snow. A smile formed on her face, she loved snow. The whiteness of it all and the way how everything looked perfect, covered in a soft white blanket. Not to mention even to walk in fresh snow, although she always hated to ruin the serenity of it all because footsteps really weren’t so serene anymore. As long as it only her walking there though and there was enough fresh snow around her, she was content. She could hardly go and tell people they couldn’t go outside when it had snowed.

After the short walk onto the campus, she searched for the keys in her bag and unlocked the door to Spencer’s office where she started to arrange his notes for later. Now all that was left was to copy the hand outs for the students and get the class room set up. She took one look if everything was in order in case he’d come while she was in the copy room and then locked the door to go and get her copying done. She knew that he wasn’t so picky and he was a great boss really but when it came to her job she was a perfectionist and she wanted to get it all right. It was just who she was and she wanted to get a good referral from him after all later to get ahead and get a spot in the PhD program here at Harvard, not to mention a job.

As she was locking the door, Spencer startled her “Good morning, Emily.” His voice the usual arrogantness he always seemed to have while speaking and his smile the usual smirk-like smile.
Maybe it was his accent who did it, maybe he was just like that, she had no idea but for some reason he always managed to make her feel small.

It was probably be more a thing of looking up to him and admiring his knowledge because now she knew him a little better she knew he really wasn’t as arrogant as he came across. At least not towards her. Still he still managed to startle her and make her feel like a little girl, she had been working for about a month for him now and still he impressed her with his knowledge and he wasn’t even that much older than herself. She looked at up Spencer, besides all that he also made her feel shy somehow and that had nothing to do with being impressed by him and all that. It was something different, something she didn’t want to acknowledge and something she didn’t want to happen. She couldn’t let this happen. He was married, she was his student and employee, this could never be. For most of the time she didn’t try to think about it but there moments like these that made her aware again, moments when he was this close to her and then that signature smirk of his. She quickly regained herself and brushed her thoughts away.

“Morning.” She smiled at him. “How are you this morning? I’m just on my way to the copy room, can I get you anything?”

“No, thanks. I’m fine for now. Well, I’ll let you go and do your work.” He smiled back at her and stepped aside so she could pass by him, her arm brushing his for a split second which almost made her tremble. This really had to stop.

While she put the things on the copy machine and started copying, her thoughts drifted to Spencer and what she was feeling. She had tried to not think about it for some time now but as feelings were uncontrollable and popped up whenever they wanted to, her thoughts drifted to that short exchange they had had just now. Usually she was able to control herself pretty much and be composed and all that but when she met in out of the blue and especially like just now when he snuck up on her, she couldn’t and everything came flowing into her. She had no idea why she felt like this, this wasn’t like her and she should forget about him and just do her work. To him she was just another student and another TA he had. He was married to that long-legged, long-haired classy woman she had seem him with at the mixer. He would never like somebody like her, Emily Gray, she was light years away from being like the wife he had.

She sighed and reprimanded herself, she had to shake this off, this was not healthy for her. As much as she tried to put it away and manage to do also, it had changed her. It had made her more serious in a bad way. Of course she had always been serious when it came about her education but she was also funny Em, the one that always cheered up others and the one that always had a joke ready. She had to snap out of this and not pretend she wasn’t thinking about it and go back to who she really was because as much as she told herself that she wasn’t thinking about, she knew it was back there and for some reason it weighed on her also if she didn’t recognize it consciously.

Going back home would hopefully give her a chance of paste. She’d be home for three weeks so that should give her other thoughts. Of course she’d also see Jason again. She could not not see him, he knew she’d be coming home for Christmas and they had agreed on being friends after all. Maybe actually seeing him again would help with that because for now all they had only talked over the phone and last time they had seen each other was when they had broken up. Thinking of Jason made her smile a little, sweet Jason, she still cared quite a lot for him also when they weren’t together anymore.

-----

“Heeey!” She screamed at Jason as he threw a big snowball at her.

She stuck her tongue out at him and pulled her red woolen hat a little more over her ears as she wiped the snow of her face. Jason had a good arm and always caught her off guard. She was about to get back at him and as she was forming a nice snowball he snuck up from behind and before she knew it she was lying flat out in the snow with Jason on top of her grinning. She made a face when he wanted to kiss her and then caught him as she rubbed the ball she had still in her hands right in his face. Grinning she then kissed him softly, kissing the snow of his lips.

“You!” He grinned when they broke the kiss and flipped her over so she was on top now before he kissed her again while he grabbed some snow with one hand which the then threw into her jacket.

“Aaaahhhhhh!” She just screamed and shivered as she jumped up on her feet.

“What’s the matter?” His voice as innocent as possible but a big smirk on his face.

Emily just shook her head and looked at him as she handed him her hand covered in a purple and red glove “Are we done now?”

He nodded laughing “Yes.”

“Ok.”

They walked along their hands intertwined breathing in the fresh cold air. She loved winter and snow, she had loved it since she was a little kid. Luckily Jason liked it as much as she did so they were out and about quite a lot now they were on their winter break. She loved this season even more so because of all the holiday, Christmas being number one of course.

It was their first Christmas together since they got together last May. It was also their last year of being without worries because next year would be their senior year and they would have to start planning on what they’d want to do, or better where they wanted to go. They hadn’t talked about this yet because it was all so far away still but Emily thought about it now and then because she had her plans sort of mapped out already. She wanted to go to Harvard and double major in English Literature and Creative Writing and she had been working for it since she started high school. Jason was a little more relaxed about these things, he’d just see where he’d go and for all he cared he’d attend a community college.

“So, my parents asked if we’d be there Christmas eve.” She looked at him smiling “Your parents are of course welcome to come also.”

He nodded “Sounds good to me, I gotta check with them though but as far as I know my mom didn’t make plans yet, except for the 25th when we’re supposed to go to my grandparents, you included.” He grinned a little.

“Me included?” She looked at him “I’m a little scared now, I have never met your grandparents…”

“Don’t worry, they’ll love you.” He chuckled “Probably more than they love me.”

She raised an eyebrow and smirked “Now, I wonder why…” Sarcasm was clearly audible in her voice, Jason was a brad and he had probably been worse when he was a kid. Of course when it came to pranks and jokes and all that she wasn’t much better but around parents or grandparents, at least other people’s, she always knew how to behave herself.

“Wanna go and do some Christmas shopping?” She looked at him “It’s only a few days and I really need some presents still…”

He made a face at first but then nodded smiling “Okay, you’re right actually I still need some things also and at least with you around I got something who can help me.” He winked at her chuckling.

“Sure, I’m the biggest shopping help you can get considering how much I love shopping…” She winked at him as she took his hand again to lead him towards Main Street as he really need a push, or a pull rather, to actually go there. It wasn’t like she didn’t need the exact same thing but at least she managed to give it to herself. “C’mon, we’ll do something fun afterwards.”

“Like what?” He wiggled with his eyebrows a little and smirked.

“I was actually thinking something else you perverted boy but who knows what will happen if you a good boy and actually do some shopping with me. Really, we both don’t like it so we should help each other get through it, right?” She smiled at him as he finally started walking.

-----

After about 2 hours they had actually both managed to get their whole Christmas shopping that was left done and satisfied they were sitting in the diner for some hot chocolate and pancakes. Emily looked at him “So, don’t you feel good now? Satisfied I mean.”

“Uhm… Yes, I guess so… But…” He looked at her and she rolled her eyes at him.

“You really can’t get enough, can you?”

“What do you think? I’m 16!” Jason shrugged and grinned “Besides you’re one to talk.”

She blushed slightly and didn’t comment but brought the steamy cup to her mouth before she looked at him again chuckling a litle. She took his hand and played with his fingers a little lowering her glance to his hands and then back to him “You thinking what I’m thinking?”

He nodded frantically “Lets finish these and lets go…”

They both gulped down the hot fluid as fast as they could and got out of there back to her house as both her parents were working and besides her parents knew and would never disturb them. It was kinda different at Jason’s place, his mom was a housewife and always home and she always thought she had to bring them cookies or milk or tea or put his laundry away when she was over there and they where in his room. So they had decided that they wouldn’t even try to do it at his place because it was virtually impossible. Emily was happy her parents were they way there were and also Robert respected their privacy, everyone in her family did.

-----

They arrived at her place even more horny than they were back at the diner because they hadn’t been able to keep their hands of each other the whole 10 minute walk over there so once they were inside and she had yelled “hello” to check if anybody was there, Jason pushed her against the door closing it and started to kiss her more passionately, his tongue looking for hers, and quickly his hands were pulling her jacket off and finding their way under her pullover. He stroked her back and loosened her bra to be able to touch her breasts, massasing her nipples until they got hard. In the meantime she had pulled his jacket and hat off and her hands were finding their way under his shirt also.

“Lets go upstairs…” She whispered inbetween kisses and moans when he went from her back to her nipples again.

He nodded but not before he lifted her shirt up and sucked her left nipple a little. She moaned and dug her nails in his back. He found his way to her mouth again and kissed her before they walked upstairs to her room.

Once inside she locked the door and pushed him on the bed, pulling her shirt over her head revealing her breasts. He looked at her longingly and pulled her in for a kiss before he rolled her on her back to kiss her breasts, softly sucking the nipples and then going further down leaving a trail of butterfly kisses on her stomach.He pulled off her pants and panties and own shirt before going further down. She moaned as he went further and further and slightly brushed her clit. He then went on to her thighs and kissed them softly before he went back to her most delicate spot again, licking her most sensitive spot before sliding his tongue into her and out again as he went back to her clit. She moaned and grabbed his head pulling him up again to kiss him deeply and pull onto her. She unbuttoned his jeans and stripped them off him including his boxers. Still kissing him she pulled him tightly and he slid his hard member into her. She moaned loudly inbetween kisses as she ran her hands up and down his back.she lifted her hips as he thrusted into her and the closer they came, the faster they moved until they both came. They broke their kiss and he rolled onto his back next to her. She turned on her side and smile at him kissing him softly, her hand going through his hair.

“That was great…”

He just nodded and smiled at her and then pulled the blanket over the both of them before he wrapped her thightly in his arms stroking her back softly. She smiled and closed her eyes as she dozed off a little until he woke up her after a little while.

“We should maybe clean up the little mess we made downstairs… I mean with the jackets, hats and all that… I know your parents don’t mind but still I feel a little weird leaving it like that.”

She nodded sleepily “Yeah, I guess you’re right… I’d like a shower also actually.”

He nodded and they both got up and threw on some clothes.

“You kno what? I’ll go and get the stuff downstairs in place and you go and take a shower, kay?”

She smiled and kissed him “Thanks, sweetie.”

With that he walked downstairs only wearing his jeans and she headed for the bathroom.

Downstairs Jason put the jackets in place and then walked into the kitchen to get something to drink.

He was just about to walk upstairs with two glasses of Coke when her mom walked inside.

“Uhm, Mrs. Gray….” He blushed and bit his lip as he looked at her.

She chuckled “Hello there Jason. Feeling a little hot there I see? And I told you numerous times, the name is Rosa.”

He blushed even more “Uhm, yes, Mrs., I mean Rosa…. Uhm, sorry, I, uhm…” He wanted to find an excuse for being shirtless in her kitchen but he knew it was pointless as he looked into her face “Well, I’m gonna go.”

He quickly walked back to Emily’s room and waited for her to get out of the shower.

“Your mom just came!” He looked at her wide eyed “And I was in the kitchen like this!”

She laughed and shook her head “Serves you for walking around shirtless.” She shook her head
“Thanks, now I’ll be teased endlessly with this…” She punched his shoulder a little as she sat down on the bed “If you wanna take a shower, go ahead, my mom won’t mind.” She winked at him.

“You sure? I mean I know she doesn’t but still it’s weird, I’m not used to these kind of things.” He looked at her and when she rolled her eyes at him he got up and headed for the bathroom knowing that there was no point in discussing this any further.

First Chapter

2007-11-02T03:00:47Z

First chapter is done!

2007-11-02T02:56:06Z

Wow, I finished the first chapter. I'm also forming the story in my head slowly.

It's gonna be Emily's story in college and she's already dated Jason during high school. Each chapter will end with a flashback of them in happy times. Hopefully I'll manage to do this so it will reflect her current life somehow. Her current life, or rather her current life in the novel will be her in the master's program, getting the TA job and then falling for her professor. Not sure yet to what extent I'll do this but I think she'll get pregnant and the end of it all will be her moving back to Pleasant Port where she'll get into a relationship with Jason again and they again break up which leads me to her present life in Pleasant Port.

And I'm actually having a plot outline!

2236 / 50,000
(4.5%)

Quota of first day has been reached!

2007-11-02T02:15:45Z

1740 / 50,000
(0.2%)

chi_nano07 @ 2007-11-02T03:00:00

2007-11-02T02:04:23Z

1st flashback: Emily sophmore, 15 -> 1986

Movies: Pretty in Pink. Top Gun. Poltergeist II. Ferris Bueller.

Jason and Emily not yet together she crushing on Luke but at the end of this flashback she should realize she might like Jason but never realized because of Jason.

End of chapter one?

First 608 words

2007-11-01T00:44:06Z

She walked out of the classroom, a big smile covering her face, and as soon as she was outside, she screamed “YES!“ She was more than happy, happy because she had gotten the job she wanted. The job she had dreamed about ever since she got here. Ever since she started studying here. She could now officially call herself a TA, she had just gotten the news from Professor Underwood and she was more than happy. She was thrilled. Sure, it would be a lot of work combing this with her double major but it would give her so many opportunities and a chance to get her dream job later on.
She walked over to the coffee cart and got herself some coffee thinking she should get home as soon as possible so she could call Robert with the good news. Wrapping the scarf around her some more as fall had really kicked in now, she walked out on the streets and made her way home as quickly as possible, almost bouncing on the sidewalk.
Once she got into her dorm room, the first thing she picked up was the phone and she dialed Robert’s number hoping he was home. About to hang up the phone, he answered.

“Hello?”

“Robert? It’s me, Emily! Guess what?”

“What?”

“I got the job, I’m officially an TA now!”

“What?! That’s great, Em! I’m very happy for you, really.”

She could hear her brother smiling through the phone.

“Thanks, I’m more than excited, more than I can even put in words. I mean the possibilites this gives me. I really should call mom and dad also, so I’ll talk to you later, kay?”

Obviously she had to call her little brother first, they were best friends and shared everything with each other. Her little brother Robert, who actually wasn’t so little anymore. He was 18 by now already and working hard to get into law school, his big dream. She was pretty proud of him because he was doing great.

Dialing her parent’s number, she couldn’t help but thinking how glad they’d both when they heard of her getting the job and it was right in time also. She had also been an undergraudate TA or TF as they called it here at Harvard but this was going to be completely different. She’d actually be able to do something and it was going to give her a big foot into the door to actually get a job later on. Her excitement to start her MA program had just flown away or there was something new already, getting this job. Life couldn’t be better.

“Gray.”

“Dad, it’s me, I got the job! The professor just told me about half an hour ago. I’ll still get the official letter and haven’t yet signed my contract but he already let me in ont eh secret.”

“That’s wonderful Emily, I knew you’d get it though.” Her dad’s voice just beamed with proud as he chuckled softly. “Let me get your mom. Rosaaaaaa!”

She waited and grinned when she heard him yelling for her mom, as usual forgetting to put the telephone away. She waited patiently for her mom to come on, only to blurt out the news as soon as she got to the phone.

“I got the job, I got the job!!”

“Congratulations, honey, but I had no doubt you’d get it really.” Her mom’s voice was even prouder than her dad’s if that could be.

They talked about it for a while until she hung up because she had some more people to call with this news. Next on her list would be Jason.

chi_nano07 @ 2007-11-01T01:20:00

2007-11-01T00:21:00Z

change of plans.

first year of ma, so 1992 and robert would be 18.

story notes

2007-11-01T00:14:41Z

Ok, first post and some note taking for me.

Emily is 35 in 2006 so she was born in 1971.
She'd be 17 in 1988
4 years BA would be make her 21 in 1992
2 years MA 23 in 1994
3 years PhD 26 in 1997

Robert is 32 in 2006 so born in 1974
17 in 1991
4 years BA 21 in 1995
Law school 4 years? 1999 graudation.

Em in her second year of MA so story set in 1993 which would make Robert 19 and in his second year of BA working towards law school